Tuesday, July 19, 2011


The IVF cycle was cancelled.... I was unhappy.... I pity partied for 48 hours... I started to get over it....  I accepted that my retrieval would not be until September... I settled in to wait for AF.... her ETA was approximately two weeks, but I was warned that she may be a little late because of the meds....I decided to wait calmly and enjoy the peace... maybe even, dare I say, have a glass of wine without feeling guilty....bold, I know.... All was well......  BUT THEN....

Just for fun...  my body decided to cramp... for added kicks it threw in some bright red unusual bleeding and a (sorry tmi) yeast infection... WAHHHH!!!  Called the clinic.... long story short... they have no flippin' idea...  not sure if this is AF or not....told me to wait to see if I get 'full flow'.....what is a full damn flow anyway....what sort of measuring stick do I have to measure 'full'... pretty scientific term 'full'...

To top it off, two of my facebook "friends" (and those quotes are EXTREMELY necessary) are complaining about accidental pregnancies.... one  only wanted three kids, but 'oops' she is having a fourth... the other doesn't get to go back to work long enough to get proper unemployment insurance because she got pregnant too quickly.... seriously?  seriously?  pregnant and too quickly are three words that should never ever be written consecutively in any spot that I can read them....

Other than that... I'm well.... been a great summer:)


Thursday, July 14, 2011


The cyst grew.  My cycle got cancelled.  I took the month off of work for nothing.  My thigh has thousands of needle prick marks for nothing.  Too bummed to say more.

Saturday, July 9, 2011

And We're Off...... OR Not!

Fresh IVF Cycle #2
Part Three-  A False Start

As I drove in for my baseline ultrasound, the sun was shining brightly.  My mood was good as I cranked up and sang along to some summer tunes on the radio.  I felt like my mind and spirit were finally completely prepared for this new IVF cycle...... as per usual though, my body was not.

Just when I thought my resume of infertility ailments was finally saturated,  the next chapter of  my journey is proving just as unpredictable as those that came before.  Nice antral follicle count, says the nurse while giving me feedback on my baseline ultrasound.  16 on the right and 10 on the left.  Yes!  I privately congratulate myself, as if I carved the follies into my ovaries myself especially for the occasion!

And then, in quick passing, the nurse adds, "but..."  Yup.  There's always a but.  "But... you have a relatively large cyst on the right as well.  It shouldn't  be a problem.  We'll give you the gonal-f and check your blood to make sure your estrogen levels aren't too high.  If you don't hear back from me then you can start the new medication tonight. It shouldn't be a problem.  It is very unlikely that you'll hear from me."  To which I reply, "Oh.  I'm sure I'll be hearing from you then (Smile.  Toss hair.  Look breezy.  Pretend I'm kidding)" 

Sure enough.  Right as scheduled... 1:00 sharp.  I let the message go to voicemail.

"Well.  Your estrogen levels are a little too high.  I'm not too worried about it.  It shouldn't be a problem (yeah... just like you said I wouldn't be getting this call!!).  Just take your lupron for one more week.  Don't start the gonal-f yet.  We'll do another baseline ultrasound next Thursday and go from there."

And so, the countdown rewinds itelf.... T Minus 4 Days... here we go again.  Like a bad case of deja vu.  

P.S. If anyone reading this has any information on cysts before IVF, I would appreciate reading any or all stories.  For some reason, I now have this nagging feeling that my cycle will need to be postponed until next month....  Grrr....